Humbling is an adjective that never fails to resonate inside my head all throughout our ongoing coverage of the 65th Miss Universe. There is excitement for sure. But on the other side of the coin, there are also moments when I would question myself for going far with my passion in the pageant. So it saddens me a bit when some people would look at me as someone who has become swell-headed in the entire process. Truthfully, the whole media accreditation left me with a lot of nagging questions:
What is the real significance of the recognition? Is there a true sense of pride in having the ID hanging around my neck? Do people who matter even look at the credential and give me instant access to coverage? Or are there restrictive conditions that we can do nothing about because the whole exercise is a business endeavor where exclusivity and connections reign supreme?
It bothers me when I get splashed with cold water (figuratively, that is) everytime I insist on delivering on what I committed myself to in the first place. I want to bring the contestants closer to the Filipinos and the international readers/followers who check up on all my social media and blogsite updates. But when the rules say no or when the spears start forming like a caged circle around me, I can do no more than to follow orders and not make a big fuss out of the whole thing. After all, it’s not worth sacrificing more than what I have already given up on the past few weeks.
My coverage partner Joy Arguil has also experienced her share of disappointments along the way – camera lens covered with the hands of security, getting cordonned-off from taking proper photos of an event and relying mostly on zooming all her shots which does not always give the best images and being asked to run around in circles to have her equipments stickered/registered at the last minute because of faulty instructions and more. It does get frustrating at some point, believe me.
Sure, the TV guestings on CNN Philippines and TV5 made me look high and mighty at the onset. But you should see how I really take in all these incidentals during lulls in the actual taping. I have never taken advantage of whatever pageant reputation earned. I go with the flow. If TV networks invite me, then thank you very much. But I will not shove myself to them and brandish about what I can say or do.
I always look forward to the next day/s being better than the last. Tomorrow night’s Preliminary Competition should be the start of the silver lining team normannorman.com is looking for. I want to end this several weeks of actual coverage with a bang. And I wish that some people would really think twice before making assumptions on my character and network of friendships. A lot of you are hiding behind the guise of a poster name. Please do not overstay your welcome inside that inner sanctum while making your virtual alter ego go berserk with comments and innuendos that promote nothing more than attenion-grabbing punchlines of negativity.
In the meantime, I will go now to the 65th Miss Universe Media Tent to check on what facilities will be made available for all accredited media.
PS. I am taking a risk in making this blog post after being sounded off by some individuals as to why local media has a lot of complaints but never talk about them openly. I’m being decently open now to all of you, dear readers.